glutton

Let's just stick
with our awkward
waves.

-don't bother-
it's just not forming how i imagined

why bother.
eyes connect with dotten lines,
squeeze,
and release.

lift your chin up, too bright,
laugh out lout, too much, too many words

pull your chin down.

don't show that translucent
flesh.
that, with eyes, eyes, eyes.

just another girl.
just another, just another, just another girl.

i would scream
if you'd just tell me
"You're worthless".

it would feel right.
more right than all this tic tac toe bullshit.

cheeks turn into
cheeks.
one big gaping hole
right in the middle.

one big sigh escapes, rattles.
watch their noses turn up, up, up.

watch your curled fingers
get smaller, and smaller, and smaller
until the tip of your nail

makes its way around glass
and bites into your palm.

remember how it felt
to bite
until if felt like,
the skin would tear,
or something.

remember how it felt,
to push
the thick curves
deep into
your thighs.

remember the perfect,
perfect,
crescent it left
on your fuzzy skin.